reward

bonfire

Blog, blog, blog!

There's so many cool things going on when one's unemployed. Manic months, I tell ya. Does my decision to be off medication have anything to do with this? Nah...I shouldn't concern myself with fears and negativity. If this euphoria is the result of refusing zoloftcelexaprozac into my bloodstream, then so be it.
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Hold on...
Why do I blog? Why do I open myself up like this? I had this question just a few days ago...

Well, I have a bad memory and so I try to write down the events of my life for whatever purpose/need I may have in the future. Sometimes I re-read entries from my old online journal and I still get surprised with some of the stuff that I wrote about as recent as a year ago.

Going though my boxes of stuff from the storage, I found a lot of my notebooks and dream journals. Before this age of blogging, I had transcribed my nightly dreams on paper...my depression and heartaches, sometimes with hand-drawings...
There's a bunch of details in my life that I had repressed or forgotten, but reading about them again gave me a little sense of fulfillment...like I somehow gained a better understanding of myself and identity at present.

and we're saving on paper thru blogging, right?

So there's no question about the cathartic purpose of all this. Why expose one's self in this way? I don't know...it's probably like putting a message in a bottle... Just write and toss it in the cyber water.
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SO, the bonfire last night...there was no moon nor stars...the high temperature during the day was not a precise foreboding of the night's...obviously, there's still sand in my head as I use such words as foreboding, bwahahhaa!
I am compensating with words, because of the comedy that was MIKE RICCA! Love you, Mike!

Here is our resident clown...in his underwear! and that priceless look of disgust on Judith's face. The question was WHY? Was it too hot or too magical of a night for Mike to undress? Sometimes I wonder what cracked out kingdom it is inside his head.


Good times! with very little planning, and just 7 people who made it to Ocean Beach last night.

my back hurts!

It just happened that we decided to terminate our lease of a storage unit in downtown San Francisco this month...and it's a coincidence that we are hosting a birthday party for Dino this Saturday.
What's the complication now, you ask?
We do have a small space but we have an abundance of friends. Previous parties have proven the former and all we want is to satisfy the latter!

So we were thinking that aside from the living room, dining and office area, we would open up the garage for a few tables for our guests.

So this was the situation in our garage after U-Hauling all of our shit from SF to SJ:












It took me both Thursday and Friday to achieve this:









Excuse me, it wasn't pushing everything towards the corner at all. I did a lot of sorting and throwing of unnecessary items. Dang, I went through 5 years worth of Photography school stuff! Yeah, I'm ashamed that we spent about $130 a month for 4 years to store my crap. BOOO!!!!!
Lesson learned, I hope. It may be the hardest thing, but QUIT BEING A PACK RAT! Let go...let go!

Wow...

I'm excited. Party tomorrow @ 6pm!

livin' la vida

I've never had a week so full yet so free of stress. Hurray for unemployment! I am embracing this freedom and I can't thank the higher powers enough for all the blessings.
How lucky am I that I can take this break and not be in any pressure to get back to work. It sure helps that we have a rent-free roof over our heads; that we don't have kids to send to school yet; that our living standards are very realistic and amazingly, our definition of luxury always fall within our means.
I'd be a hypocrite if I say we don't spend. Sure, we are big shoppers but we make sure that every purchase is justified. If Dino has a lot of toys and comic books, it is to make sure that his inspiration and creativity are sustained. If I buy new shoes and clothes, I cannot say that I will be saving the world...but there is always a long deliberation between 'need' and 'want.'
Case in point, my Target monkey slippers that I wore to its death:

Now hello, new puppy slippers!

Hennysey-way, I truly feel blessed and I'm enjoying this moment because I know it's not always going to be like this.

I used to be so depressed and anxious when I was in between jobs...when I wasn't involved in any artistic projects. It was as if I had zero worth at all if I didn't produce anything (art,work, shows).
I don't know if it comes with being 32 or having the carpal tunnel/tendonitis reason to quit my job...or maybe the fact that I have Dino to rely on when it comes to a regular income to pay our bills...I just feel at peace right now even though I am not working.

I am definitely not lowering my standards...the dreams and goals are endless. It's just that at this moment, it feels so good to breathe, relax...and just be.

decadent wednesday

It's Dino's birthday!

He thought we'd have a "light" breakfast at McDonald's because he had his whole afternoon plan to have lunch and hang out in EA.

Here's our main guy checking out the Clone Wars toys. He didn't like them at all. No happy meals, boo!


As he was having barbecue and taking sake shots with his friends at work, I decided to indulge in some fancy lunch at Consuelo's. I've eaten at this mexican bistro a couple of times in the past and I haven't been disappointed.

waiting for my entree...












mango, mild and spicy!









my dream wall. an alcoholic's fantasy.









taking in the ambiance...









pan seared mahi-mahi on a bed of sauteed green beans and chayote, topped with a magical mushroom sauce!










On to birthday boy's dinner at Tanto in Sunnyvale...












uh-oh, epic diet failure! your base are belong to us.










let's throw in a picture of me...happy birthday, baby!


Just as I thought the day couldn't get any better, we saw Pineapple Express. BEST.MOVIE.EVER. We had so much fun!

onitsuka tigers and tokidoki collaboration

This is what I really want.














...but I only discovered this collaboration 2 months after its release. At this point almost everything is sold out.


This is what's coming to my doorstep. *Crossing my fingers that they don't get stolen, delayed or worse, out of stock/backordered!*

he's bald again

...crazy in four parts.
Yup, I married this guy.

my saturday in pictures

Breakfast of champs @ denny's; free monkey on a tree balloon from an emo guy; dinner at the Château Deck in Mountain Winery, Saratoga; Toad the Wet Sprocket concert.

The best.

rockit

Her royal fierceness, Golda Sargento at Rockit San Francisco.


Tonight was a blast. I occasionally see a few close friends and rarely hang out with most Bindlestiff folks outside of shows. Lucky day for me :)

goh!

Goh Nakamura launched his 2nd album to a packed Cafe du Nord last night. Dino grabbed a copy and I will listen to it soon. He might have left it in his jacket's pocket...

There were two opening acts. First was this jazz vocalist from Brooklyn, Michelle Amador. Very soothing voice she has...reminded me of Cocteau Twins, Mazzy Star, and the Sundays. Loved her! I didn't have enough cash for the cd and dreaded the thought of walking in SF cold to the ATM. It was a stupid decision really.

The band Scrabble followed. They were really good. Although I got bored after their hundredth song. It's tricky, these shows...the individual songs were great but their set was way too long. I was already tired before Goh even came up!

So annoyed about Scrabble...I kept looking at my watch and thinking about the long drive home...thought it was unfair and compromised my enjoyment of Goh's performance.

I had a great time being out on a Wednesday. That one cocktail kept me up til about 5am though...next time, no cola in my rum. Not even my zzzz pill could help me. Crazy.